Ever since I was little I sketch almost everything, but mostly nature. I even design clothes and some of them were really put into action. However, when I grow older it seems that I lack time doing some sketching. Good thing, a friend of mine ask me a favor to design a Christmas reindeer costume, for her daughter to be used in school, and so I did. At least, I get to draw again. I miss drawing and sketching so much. Like music, sketching inspires me and make me feel good about myself. I love the fact that if preoccupies me and helps me feel talented and blessed.
Even though, I do not earn or make a living out of it, I will still do some sketching not for other people’s sake but in order to make happy and complete. I hope though, that time can be friendly, so that I can do some sketching again. Until my next sketch then!(“,)
Have you guys heard the lyrics, “Let the music heal your soul, let the music take control?” This is one of my inspirational song. Actually, it is not that I like the song so much, but it is more of its lyrics. I truly believe that, when you are sad and feeling blue, listening to a beautiful song can somehow, lift up your spirit. In my life, every time, things do not go my way, music was there to help me when everybody else was busy. Or even if my loved ones were not busy, but I am the one who wants to deal with my own problem, music is my best companion. It is not noisy, demanding, judgmental neither does it have high expectations. Music, is just there to calm my senses and soothe my breaking heart. So my advice to you my dear friends is to give music a chance.
This is my life, Joy, Pain, Happiness, and sometimes my life is in a state of being busy. A state of being busy can be weird sometimes, because when I was in this state, I was not well aware of my emotions. It is like, time seems to fly by so fast and I tend to become a robot, just doing the same thing over and over again, and in a hurry too, because of the deadline. I do not exactly know if it is a good thing, but at least my life is not redundant.
I have been very busy for the past two weeks, I miss blogging, I miss browsing the net, and for some weird reason, I miss Facebook. It is not that I do Facebook everyday, but you know, if I am not busy at least I can check out my account anytime I want. I had to juggle tasks, taking care of my son, taking care of my husband and the small store as well. Wheh!, I am just super glad that I can finally rest for a few days until my next project. Anyway, I am not complaining, in fact, I am appreciative of what is given to me right now.
There is nothing in this world a mother would not do for her child. That is why whenever a basher strikes, it would take ginormous amount of strength just to keep quite and allow my child to deal with pain on his own. Because sometimes, in order to help your child survive this world filled not only with love but with a lot of haters, is to teach your child to embrace pain and be strong. It is such a sad plight, that we belong to a country where education is not the highest priority. I believe that when a person is well educated, E.Q not just I.Q will also be developed (and please! I am definitely not talking about the diaper thingy). I am hurt as of the moment, because I want to give that person a piece of my mind! However, knowing that it would not lead into a good path or ideal path as such, I opted or my better half conscience literally forced me to ignore deliberate, intentionally, purposive hurtful words. If it were my own choice, I would rant endlessly . Needless to say, I am always here for my son no matter what!.
Emotions can be oh so deep!
Part of being human is to feel enormous amount of pain. In my case, pain when it comes to relationship. I can not seem to handle mine at the moment. Maybe, because my mind is clouded, my heart is distorted or I am simply shattered. I so want to give up. I have been hurt and troubled for these past years, I guess I am just fed up. I feel weird now, I am likened to a robot. It is as if, I do not care anymore. How can I possibly see things clearly when I am in so much pain. He pretends as if things are okay. They are not okay, I am not okay. How I wish I can just shut down or change into an okay mode. Switch On, Switch Off that is. It is not that simple anymore. I cannot leave though, there is too much at stake. I do not want to cause hurt. So, the reality is even if I have to suffer, I have to accept it, this is my life, this is my reality.