I have been meaning to write but it seems that time was not that generous for these couple of days. But I am so glad now, I have all the time in the world to write again. I love fashion, I love clothes not much on accessories and shoes, but clothes a definite yes. That is why, I had my picture taken by my hubby to update one of my accounts with regard clothes.
My outfit in this picture reflects a boyish, free-spirited and carefree me. I love jeans so much, they are so comfortable and you can easily move around with it. Caps are not just protection from the heat of the sun or from the cold weather but it is a great accessory too. It can easily change a bad hair day into a chic street gal. Sneakers, who does not want sneakers, you can run, jump and just play around without getting tired feet. All in all the outfit, my outfit is street smart and comfy.
Ever since I was little I sketch almost everything, but mostly nature. I even design clothes and some of them were really put into action. However, when I grow older it seems that I lack time doing some sketching. Good thing, a friend of mine ask me a favor to design a Christmas reindeer costume, for her daughter to be used in school, and so I did. At least, I get to draw again. I miss drawing and sketching so much. Like music, sketching inspires me and make me feel good about myself. I love the fact that if preoccupies me and helps me feel talented and blessed.
Even though, I do not earn or make a living out of it, I will still do some sketching not for other people’s sake but in order to make happy and complete. I hope though, that time can be friendly, so that I can do some sketching again. Until my next sketch then!(“,)
Have you guys heard the lyrics, “Let the music heal your soul, let the music take control?” This is one of my inspirational song. Actually, it is not that I like the song so much, but it is more of its lyrics. I truly believe that, when you are sad and feeling blue, listening to a beautiful song can somehow, lift up your spirit. In my life, every time, things do not go my way, music was there to help me when everybody else was busy. Or even if my loved ones were not busy, but I am the one who wants to deal with my own problem, music is my best companion. It is not noisy, demanding, judgmental neither does it have high expectations. Music, is just there to calm my senses and soothe my breaking heart. So my advice to you my dear friends is to give music a chance.
This is my life, Joy, Pain, Happiness, and sometimes my life is in a state of being busy. A state of being busy can be weird sometimes, because when I was in this state, I was not well aware of my emotions. It is like, time seems to fly by so fast and I tend to become a robot, just doing the same thing over and over again, and in a hurry too, because of the deadline. I do not exactly know if it is a good thing, but at least my life is not redundant.
I have been very busy for the past two weeks, I miss blogging, I miss browsing the net, and for some weird reason, I miss Facebook. It is not that I do Facebook everyday, but you know, if I am not busy at least I can check out my account anytime I want. I had to juggle tasks, taking care of my son, taking care of my husband and the small store as well. Wheh!, I am just super glad that I can finally rest for a few days until my next project. Anyway, I am not complaining, in fact, I am appreciative of what is given to me right now.
There is nothing in this world a mother would not do for her child. That is why whenever a basher strikes, it would take ginormous amount of strength just to keep quite and allow my child to deal with pain on his own. Because sometimes, in order to help your child survive this world filled not only with love but with a lot of haters, is to teach your child to embrace pain and be strong. It is such a sad plight, that we belong to a country where education is not the highest priority. I believe that when a person is well educated, E.Q not just I.Q will also be developed (and please! I am definitely not talking about the diaper thingy). I am hurt as of the moment, because I want to give that person a piece of my mind! However, knowing that it would not lead into a good path or ideal path as such, I opted or my better half conscience literally forced me to ignore deliberate, intentionally, purposive hurtful words. If it were my own choice, I would rant endlessly . Needless to say, I am always here for my son no matter what!.
Emotions can be oh so deep!
Part of being human is to feel enormous amount of pain. In my case, pain when it comes to relationship. I can not seem to handle mine at the moment. Maybe, because my mind is clouded, my heart is distorted or I am simply shattered. I so want to give up. I have been hurt and troubled for these past years, I guess I am just fed up. I feel weird now, I am likened to a robot. It is as if, I do not care anymore. How can I possibly see things clearly when I am in so much pain. He pretends as if things are okay. They are not okay, I am not okay. How I wish I can just shut down or change into an okay mode. Switch On, Switch Off that is. It is not that simple anymore. I cannot leave though, there is too much at stake. I do not want to cause hurt. So, the reality is even if I have to suffer, I have to accept it, this is my life, this is my reality.
These two boys are the love of my life. We may have misunderstandings and misgivings with regard certain things, but my love for them never falter. And because I love them very much, I also learn to love myself and discover what makes me happy outside my family life. You see, in order to be an efficient mother and a loving wife, there is a need to love and respect yourself first. Only from loving and accepting who you are can you truly love others. How can you value love, when you do not know what it truly means first hand? How can you know it is true love, when you have not experienced it first hand either?.
Do not be scared and feel guilty of loving yourself, because like me, by loving my self, I was able to show real love to my son and husband.
I love this book Private Places by Judith Wilson, basically it gives ideas on how to create your own space inside your own home, without actually, the need of bigger spaces. In this particular book, it teaches how to arrange furniture in order to make the space look spacious despite the limited size. The author explains that, you do not really need a big house just to create a space of your own, for hobbies or for relaxation purposes. I love looking at the pages of the book especially the part where, the books are displayed on beautiful and practical shelves, because I myself, am a book lover.
There are also various designs to choose from, like if you are a person who loves everything vintage, this book also shows you what furniture to use and how to decorate the room. It even has a page that shows modern ideas for a limited space. But as for me I am more of an eclectic type of person meaning, I want a little bit of mostly everything, from modern, to vintage and even country design.
So imagine, my luck for having bought this book on sale! I was so happy, because at least I have a hardbound copy which I can browse anytime I want without really worrying about internet connections. Because you know sometimes, all you really need is a book.
I am fascinated with anything kawaii, from cute pens, notebooks and cellphone holders too. And since I love to write, just about anything, well I used to keep diaries before, I now collect cute pens. The colors and designs may vary and even the sizes too. In fact, I took a photo of few of my pen collections without the longs pens because it would not fit in the picture.
I even have this idea, that when there’s a birthday celebration with kawaii themes, you can use pens as cute give aways to your guests. The good thing about cute pens is that you do not need to spend more than your budget because most of these pens are not expensive. In my case, I am more inspired to write if I’ll be using these kind of pens. Anyways, have a nice day everyone!(“,)