Busy Life

This is my life, Joy, Pain, Happiness, and sometimes my life is in a state of being busy. A state of being busy can be weird sometimes, because when I was in this state, I was not well aware of my emotions. It is like, time seems to fly  by so fast and I tend to become a robot, just doing the same thing over and over again, and in a hurry too, because of the deadline.  I do not exactly know if it is a good thing, but at least my life is not redundant.

I have been very busy for the past two weeks, I miss blogging, I miss browsing the net, and for some weird reason, I miss Facebook. It is not that I do Facebook everyday, but you know, if I am not busy at least I can check out  my account anytime I want. I had to juggle tasks, taking care of my son, taking care of my husband and the small store as well. Wheh!, I am just super glad that I can finally rest for a few days until my next project. Anyway, I am not complaining, in fact, I am appreciative of what is given to me right now.




Emotions can be oh so deep!

Part of being human is to feel enormous amount of pain. In my case, pain when it comes to relationship. I can not seem to handle mine at the moment. Maybe, because my mind is clouded, my heart is distorted or I am simply shattered. I so want to give up. I have been hurt and troubled for these past years, I guess I am just fed up. I feel weird now, I am likened to a robot. It is as if, I do not care anymore. How can I possibly see things clearly when I am in so much pain. He pretends as if things are okay. They are not okay, I am not okay. How I wish I can just shut down or change into an okay mode. Switch On, Switch Off that is. It is not that simple anymore. I cannot leave though, there is too much at stake. I do not want to cause hurt. So, the reality is even if I have to suffer, I have to accept it, this is my life, this is my reality.